Last year, I actually loved school. As in I used to wake up and look forward to coming to school while most people would wish they could go back to sleep. Now, unfortunately, I have become the “most people.” Whether it’s the increased workload or something going on personally with myself, this year has (so far) been a dramatically worse experience than last year.

People used to look at me like I was crazy when I said I enjoyed going to school. I never understood why everyone hated it so much. I mean of course I don’t find joy in taking exams and staying up late to study. However, I was able to find a lot more positives aspects about school than I can now. For example, I loved learning because I found most of the topics fairly easy and interesting at the same time. I had my moments of struggle but I had a pretty simple year in regards of assignments. This year it is a completely different story. In fact, my grades have actually never been as bad as they have been this year than they have ever been in my whole life. I seem to find most subjects difficult this year and I have been falling behind which I never do. It’s not that I’m losing motivation because I am actually trying more now than ever before. I believe the workload just increased by a whole lot, and the classes are much harder for me.

Another reason why I liked school so much last year was the fact that I had classes with my close friends. I have classes with friends this year, it’s just they are mostly people I only talk to at school so it’s much less natural to create conversation. This is probably for the best because it allows me to reach out to new people and focus more on my school work, but it does make the overall environment much more dull.

On the first day of school this year, I was so excited to come back. The first sense that I got coming back this year, though, was different. The vibe felt changed and it never went away. It actually just increasingly got worse as the year went on. I’m hoping for a shift this semester, because I have never disliked school as much as I do now.