Lately, I’ve caught myself doing anything except what I’m supposed to in class, whether that’s watching random YouTube movies, playing Sudoku and the Google Snake game, or listening to music. You name it, I’ve done it.  

I mean, don’t get me wrong, I still do all of my work and get good grades, so that’s not the issue. It’s more about how boring senior year is starting to feel. I remember those first few months when school was actually interesting, and there was always something to look forward to: homecoming, football season, and all of the senior events. Now, everything’s died down, and it just feels like a long, drawn-out wait until graduation. 

Almost everyone around me, including myself, has either committed or has a very clear idea of where they’re going after high school, so now, every waterfall assignment or progress check really just feels like turning in busy work. 

Right now, it feels like I’m stuck in this weird limbo, somewhere between being done and not actually done. I’ve committed to a college, registered for orientation, and literally have my cap and gown in hand. Yet, somehow, I’m still here. 

And I don’t think I’m the only one who feels this way. I’ve noticed, with time, conversations aren’t about what is happening on campus next week, they’re about roommates, dorms, majors, and what life, potentially for the next four years, will look like in just a few months. 

But at the same time, I know this is it. And although it feels repetitive and pointless, I have to keep reminding myself it’s still part of the experience. As much as I catch myself wishing high school would just be over already, I know there are small moments I’m going to miss, even the routines I’m so tired of right now. 

Before I Lea-ve, 

Appreciate the last moments, even if they’re boring, before everything changes.